a couple random things.
i’m trying to do about 15, lets see how far i get without boring myself to death…
1) I like dogs
2) im basically failing all of my classes so far
3) Even tho school sucks, i really dont want to go home
4) I hate alcoholics, i like pot heads
5) i smoke a lot of weed.
6) im afraid to get close to people.
7) i mess up a lot of friendships
8) i overthink nearly everything
9) class is over so i should rap this up
10) im about to take a test, but i reallllly dont think im gonna do well
11) i like to read, when im reading, but i never have the initiative to pick up a book
12) i love my dad, 100% daddys girl
13) im kinda spoiled by him but my mom and i hate each other
14) not many people actually no me
15) i have a couple labels that i wish would go away but i know they never will
greetings!
greetings 5 people that follow me. its been a while since i last tumbled.. i guess thats what you call it. im not one for sticking to something once i start, so sorry to let you down guys.
i dont even know why im on now. i dont really have much to say. i never do really. nothing i want to say anyway.
see people think im hilarious… but thats just because i have to be so that no one will ask me a serious question. like if im really okay.
it usually goes as followed - ” hey whats up! “
then i come up with a snarky remark about the person, or tell them a funny story, so i dont have to tell them about me actually. i only have, id say 2 friends that know who i really am.
and one ex bestfriend. … . .
part of the reason i dont tell people shiiiit
i surround myself with
Idiots eighty percent of my life. No one knows what they’re doing ever. My parents just don’t get it. My friends blame me for being distant when they don’t have the slightest idea how awful my life is. They have absolutely no idea what I go thru on a daily basis. And most of all my doctors don’t know shit. They do this, something awful happens, they do something to counter that and something even worse happens. I lost 2 years of my life because of them. And on top of that I’m missing my whole summer. I’m either in the hospital or on quarantine. I can’t win. And there’s nothing I can do. What are my options. Stop listening to the doctors and just die somewhere? That’s just selfish.
pretty girls
I feel like pretty girls get everything they want. All the time, if a pretty girl goes up to a hot or popular guy he’ll say hi and they’ll talk. If an average looking girl did the same she would get laughed at. That’s why girls who aren’t “ugly” just not gorgeous, have such low selfesteem… Every time they get rejected they get afraid of getting rejected again, making them less confident which in turn makes them less desirable. I wish I knew the way to break this god damn curse cause its ruining my life.
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put down the fucking bottle.
thats all i have to say
your drunken antics dont make anyone happy
youre not funny
youre not cool
youre tearing this family apart.
i havent said i love you in over 3 years
and youre my mother.
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falling
sometimes i feel like i’m falling. without a saftey net. without you there to catch me. we’ve been drifting so much that i stay awake at night thinking what could have been. we could have had everything. We love the same thing. Even your music ive grown to like, so why, why on earth would you push me away?
numb
im numb in two ways.
from the surgery and emotionally.
you took everything out of me, all my strength, energy, my time and i thought i was making head way with you. i thought we were going somewhere
why lead me on? i’m not saying in a more than friends kind of way, but why did you lead me on pretending we would be friends forever. i believed you
maybe that was stupid of me.
but now i dont really feel. i dont mind it much. cause i guess getting upset about it or annoyed by it, would be feeling something in itself.
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